Deflated

I've felt so deflated the past week.  It's a combination of boredom, exhaustion and hopelessness. I've not given up on weight loss - but I've not been dedicated to it either.  The reason being, that I'm not feeling remotely committed to anything.

I feel this emptiness in my core at the moment - it's hard to feel enthusiatic about anything - yoga, work, housework, children's events, house improvements, family holidays... all the things that would normally excite and invigorate me or have me leaping to action are leaving me feeling, well uninspired.

The only solace I find is in food, HGTV and mind numbing games on my phone or a quick Facebook fix.  This truly is pathetic.  There are so many other things I could and SHOULD be doing other than those things, but I feel as though I keep being beaten back by them.

I can't seem to find an even keel, it all seems too hard - the never-ending fight to stay on top of everything (and it is a fight).   A tidy house is quickly replaced with a horrendous mess, a good day's nutrition and exercise is backed up with a day of over indulgence and slothiness,  a day of excellent progress at work is overshadowed by a day of inactivity and procrastination.

It's the feeling of treading water and knowing you're staying afloat, but you aren't getting anywhere and if you stop treading then you're going under.  There is only way out is to start swimming, it's either that or let yourself sink and I can't do that.  It's time to get pumped up and find some energy and motivated and some enthusiasm for life!!