So What Now?

God - I didn't realise it has been more than just a few months since my last post - it has in fact been 8 months since I last posted, and in that time I have gained an average of about 1 kg per month!

To be fair it's not a surprise.  That Christmas / holiday season was the biggest contributing factor.  I struggled to control my urge to indulge and I just completely let loose - and boy do I mean let loose. I'm talking large portions, carb rich snacks, sweet treats and all those Christmas calorie-dense goodies.

I spent a bit of time going over and reading some of my old posts this morning.  I was in such a great head-space about a year ago, but then, what happened?  Well things just slowly started falling away... I stopped getting out the nutri-ninja, my batteries gave up in my bathroom scales, my fit-bit stopped charging properly, my blogger account kept throwing me out... it all seemed too hard to fix, to hard to even try.  So what'd I do, I just gave up and thought - I will just wait until I'm in the right head-space to deal with it all.

Frankly, I'm surprised the damage was not worse, but I'm still bitterly disappointed that I find myself back in this place - back where I didn't want to be - confronting myself about my eating habits and the resulting weight gain.  I'm glad I'm doing this now and not in another 20 kg's time - but I'm certainly not proud of myself for what has happened.

So here I am 8 months later and wondering why - why and how did I let it happen?   The more important question though is:  What am I going to do about it now?