Day 5 - Weigh-in

I weighed in this morning - 78.8 kgs, so just a few days of discipline has paid off.

The big issue remaining is that I don't feel well in myself.

Here I am, feeling pretty sad and tired, but actually looking a bit brighter than I expected.

My nutrition is still not up to scratch and there are symptoms that I know are an indication of my poor health. They are:

- Flaky scalp and dry skin

- Acne and boils

- Feeling lethargic 

- Urine has strong odour

I know I'm not getting enough of what I need. Now that I've curbed the comfort eating, it is my next step to get back to making smoothies and getting up my vege and fruit intake.

The produce department at the supermarket is going to get hit hard on my next shopping trip!

Day 2 Withdrawls

Today I woke up feeling dizzy and light headed. I haven't been under eating, just being more disciplined with snacking. I think this is part of the withdrawl process, which will hopefully pass soon.

I've been directing my thoughts to playing games on my phone. I know it's not necessarily productive, but it's kept my mind off food and wanting to snack.

I need to be vigilant and stay disciplined to avoid slipping back to old habits. In a few days this will be much easier and I'll be out of danger.

Getting Back on the Wagon

Yesterday went well. I managed to control my portion sizes and the urge to comfort eat without too much drama.

I will admit that my mood is affected, but I'm not letting that stop me. I've issued a warning to my husband that for a few days I will be suffering 'food withdrawals' so expect me to have a short fuse.

I'm relieved that day one is over, but it will take a good week before I start to feel a difference. There is hard work ahead, but I'm determined to get back on the wagon.

Damage Report

The past few months since I posted last have been a little chaotic.

I've changed jobs, which hopefully means less stress and anxiety and more chance of consistency in my moods and mental wellness. But, the uncertainty of learning a new job and making the transition has, well, been unsettling.

My coping mechanism has been comfort eating and over indulging. It's hard to believe that I reverted back to my old habits so readily after having such a strong mindset to take care of myself and focus on the nutritional benefit of food and not the feelings and emotions it envokes.

The damage is that, as of this morning I weighed in at 80.4 kgs. That's a gain of around 2 kgs :-(

It is outside of my comfort zone and it will continue to go up if I don't get to grips with my eating habits.

From today I need to do damage control and at the very least get my portions and snacking down. I don't expect to lose weight straight away, but I'm hoping to stop gaining and get back on firmer ground.