The Final Countdown

Only a few days now until we move into our new home. I've not allowed myself to get too excited, there is so much work to do to prepare to move that it has dulled down the enjoyment of having a new home with more space to enjoy.  I am feeling restless and uncertain about how prepared I am for the move, there are other things playing on my mind too, but there is little point in worrying until I get to the new house and get settled. I'm concerned about the financial situation - as it stands now and going forward. It is going to be a tight 12 months and I'm going to be frustrated, wanting to decorate and nest in the new home without a budget to do what I'd like.  I'm even stressed about over decorating the new house and then there's work creeping into my sphere of concern. It's ridiculous really, these are hardly things to be overly worried about, but I guess it's in my nature and I will always find something to stress over.

2 x 2 = Just AWFUL

Having 2 year old twins has to be the most tiring, trying and overwhelming time of my life. I have never wanted so much to just walk away and just look out for myself. I feel like I'm turning into a monster mother and wicked wife (in the evil sense), I feel guilty most of the time for my behavior and the rest of the time I'm past giving a sh*te!  It may just be because I'm preparing to move house in a few short weeks or that work is proving a challenge most days. I wish I could be more and give more of myself to my family, but I also wish they'd take a bit less sometimes too!